They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis."
It is when you stop going along with the crowd
and start realizing that there are many things
about yourself that you didn't know and may not
like.
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you
will be in a year or two, but then get scared
because you barely know where you are now.
You start realizing that people are selfish and
that, maybe, those friends that you thought you
were so close to aren't exactly the greatest
people you have ever met, and the people you have
lost touch with are some of the most important
ones.
What you don't recognize is that they are
realizing that too, and aren't really cold,
catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as
confused as you.
You look at your job... and it is not even close
to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe
you are looking for a job and realizing that you
are going to have to start at the bottom and that
scares you.
Your opinions have gotten stronger.
You see what others are doing and find yourself
judging more than usual because suddenly you
realize that you have certain boundaries in your
life and are constantly adding things to your
list of what is acceptable and what isn't.
One minute, you are insecure and then the next,
secure.
You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your
life.
You feel alone and scared and confused.
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and
cling on to the past with your dear life, but soon
realize that the past is drifting further and
further away, and there is nothing to do but stay
where you are or move forward.
You get your heart broken and wonder how someone
you loved could do such damage to you.
Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet
anyone decent enough that you want to get to
know better.
Or maybe you love someone but love someone else
too and cannot figure out why you are doing this
because you know that you aren't a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to
look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts
to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions
over and over, and talk with your friends about
the same topics because you cannot seem to make a
decision.
You worry about loans, money, the future and
making a life for yourself... and while winning
the race would be great, right now you'd just
like to be a contender!
